Blueprint – SeokkyuKim
Absolutemoment,o.O. Intherelativetime,O.o.oo.
Itisnow,o.o. Tangledupintimeandspace,O.oo.O.o.o. Inthecrushedchaos,o.o.oo.O.o.O.
Iprobablygotusedtobeingaloneinthestateofnothingness.O.o.oo.o.o. Leavemyselfagain.O.o.o.O.o.o
Allpainiscomingfrombluememory, soithastobeerased.o.oo.o.O. ButIhavetoexisttobeblueastheindeliblebruisecausedbythelight.o.o.
Myfeelingswereforcedbyothers.o. Fortunately,o.o. ThosefeelingswilldisappearifIerasemyself.O.o.o
Itisimpossibletohaverationalthoughts only.o.o. Nowinthewater,o. ButIhaveadryfeeling.o.O.
SeemslikealreadydeadalthoughIamnot generousaboutdeath.o.oo. Peoplewantmetosmileandtobehonest.o.oo.oo.
Ijustfeelliketheyalways wantmetodosomethingforthem.o. MyexistencedisappearswhenIamtryingtodowhattheywant.o.o.O.
Suddenly,realisedthatIdonothavegills.O.o. Itmakesmechoke.o.o. Letmescreaminblue.o.
Inthewater.oo.o.o. YoumaynothearmysadnessevenIcannothearit.o.o.o.O.o.o. Because,thesadnesshas becomeairbubbles.O.oo.
CowardWittgenstein!o. Whydidn'tyoutalkaboutdifferencebetween
involuntaryandvoluntarysilence?O.O.oo.O. Butyou'reright.o.o Afterall,Ikeptsilent.o.oo.o.oo.o
Ididnot know.o. Iwillforgethowtocryifforgethowtosmile.O.o.o.o.oo.oo.o… … …
Blue print – Seokkyu Kim
Absolute moment, o.O. in the relative time,
O.o.oo. it is now, o.o. tangled up in time and space, O.oo.O.o.o. in the
crushed chaos, o.o.oo.O.o.O. I probably got used to being alone in the state of
nothingness. O.o.oo.o.o. Leave myself again. O.o.o.O.o.o All pain is coming
from blue memory, so it has to be erased. o.oo.o.O. But I have to exist to be
blue as the indelible bruise caused by the light. o.o. My feelings were forced
by others. o. Fortunately, o.o. those feelings will disappear if I erase myself.
O.o.o. It is impossible to have rational thoughts only. o.o. Now in the water,
o. but I have a dry feeling. o.O. Seems like already dead although I am not generous
about death. o.oo. People want me to
smile and to be honest. o.oo.oo. I just feel like they always want me to do
something for them. o. My existence disappears when I am trying to do what they
want. o.o.O. Suddenly, realised that I do not have gills. O.o. It makes me
choke. o.o. Let me scream in blue, o. in the water. oo.o.o. You may not hear my
sadness even I cannot hear it. o.o.o.O.o.o. Because, the sadness has become air bubbles. O.oo.
Coward Wittgenstein! o. Why didn't you talk about difference
between involuntary and voluntary silence? O.O.oo.O. But you're right. o.o
After all, I kept silent. o.oo.o.oo.o I did not know. o. I will forget how to
cry if forget how to smile. O.o.o.o.oo.oo.o… … …